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I think I've lost two people I care most about all in one evening.

I think I've made two huge mistakes in one evening.

I'm pretty sure this is all going to come pouring back to me ten-fold.  Karma...it's a bitch.

I just CAN'T make myself stay happy for more than a week.  I CAN'T let myself believe.  I can't stay in one place.  I can't shop around.  It really sucks.  I don't want to hurt people...yet I have an amazing skill for doing just that.  I let it get just that far...just far enough where it'll hurt...it'll sting.  And I always end up the bad guy.  Yes...I'm being hypocritical.  I don't care anymore.  I can't care about anyone anymore.  I'll just end up puking like I have been for the last two hours if I care.  I have to learn to not care. 

"Well, you're either lovers or you're wanting to be lovers or you're trying not to be lovers so you can be friends, but any way you look at it, sex is always looming in the picture like a shadow, like an undertow." - Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider-Northern Exposure

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spleckaann
Nov. 8th, 2005 12:04 pm (UTC)
If it makes a difference...
I don't want to be your lover....just your friend..:) How's that for uncomplicated!
jasondemotte
Nov. 8th, 2005 12:34 pm (UTC)
Ouch. If I can help, let me know, ok?
coyote79
Nov. 8th, 2005 03:05 pm (UTC)
you are, most definatly, the bad guy.

:p

but i don't hate you anymore!
ducttapeboy
Nov. 8th, 2005 05:44 pm (UTC)
I may not know all of what's going on, but I'm here for you anyway if you want to talk. >:D
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