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Sep. 8th, 2003

Something is screwy with my LJ layout. Normally it's got a nice gray blobby background with purple accents and the text is all in grey boxes. Well the boxes have all turned white. What the hell. Someone did not pay $25 for me to have fucking white boxes people. What the hell?

In other news I have three straight days of work. Oh fucking joy. I hate going to work. I hate being away from Jesse. I hate living with my father and being treated like a 12 year old.

In good news I got some postcard in the mail saying my ACT scores *from 1997 mind you* qualify for their "high honors" program. Whatever the hell that means. I should go look on their website. I don't really know if I want to go there...but at this point I'm willing to go anywhere. I just want a damn degree. And I think if I'm with my dad he'll force me to get my ass through it. He watches everything like a fucking hawk. So yeah...maybe it's a good idea. Who knows? The only downside is I really don't think I can be apart from Jesse for much longer. Seriously...I have daily sucidal rants...of course I get over them but I hate having them to begin with. I just wish I could have something happy in my life. I wish I could have just one single damn friend here...someone to go out with once awhile and do something. That's another reason I think getting back to school would be nice. Then again the last two times I've been in school I never made friends...so I don't know why I think it would be any different here. Probably my wishful thinking. I thought having a job would help a lot of things but it really doesn't. I have the same amount of money it seems...none. I -barely- have enough to buy lunch for the next few weeks of work. But at least I'll be getting a somewhat "real" check in less than two weeks. I'm going to work my ass off to get my red dress done and I'm gonna take Jesse out for his b-day. Even though it'll be a month late by the time I get there:( I can't believe it's going to be over a month by the time I see him. *oh god oh god oh god*

Anyhow...I'm off to do something pointless...night night!!!


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Sep. 8th, 2003 08:50 pm (UTC)
I feel your pain.

I wonder if Jake is going to want to hang out for his birthday. Probably not. He'll probably be busy fucking Renee. >_
Sep. 8th, 2003 08:59 pm (UTC)
:( I tell you...men are evil. I still haven't gotten the guts to call Jake back and find out what the shit Jesse told him. I honestly don't think I want to know anymore. I'm happy living in my fantasy bubble. At least I have a week with him in two weeks. No fucking other girls unless I'm included damnit! >_< Men suck!!!
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