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Before I start...I'd just like to clarify something. I'm not mad at Jesse, I'm simply mad at the situation I'm in and the fact that I can't understand everything he's thinking. He didn't do anything wrong...I'm just upset and let down.

So yeah, Jesse's going the Dells Wed, Thurs, and Fri. This means that he's not going to be able to come to the Christmas party at work. Which he said he was. Which would have been the first thing of mine that's he's done in ages. Of course overlooking the fact that the only reason he wanted to go was because he figured Mike would be there with Nicole, I guess he really has no obligation to go anyhow...but still. It would have been nice for him to do something with me that was important to me for once. That and he just springs this whole thing on me tonight, which leaves me without a car for three days of work. Technically I have a car, but I don't know how to drive it and I'm scared to death to learn. I've had terrible experiences with stick cars and I'd just perfer to stay away from them all together. Besides, I was sort of pressured into the buying of the car in the first place. If you missed that post the jist of it was Jesse found the car, told my mum, mum assumed I wanted the thing, I went home that night and everything was already set up without me having any say in the matter at all. So yeah, fuck the Christmas party at work then. I'm not going. I'm not going to sit around and be ignored by all of five co-workers that I know. Not my idea of a slammin good time.

In other news...
I've been thinking about how strange it is to be a diabetic. I mean I don't think it's weird most of the time but the other day this commercial came on saying how you should all donate to help cure diabetes and how insulin isn't a cure and we have to live with shots for the rest of our lives if a cure isn't found and yada yada yada and it just felt weird to know that they were talking about me. It makes me feel not real in a way...I don't like that feeling at all. On the flip side I'm glad that they are starting to raise awareness though. It's important for people to know and understand that unlike cancer, we don't have a cure. We're in the same boat as AIDS/HIV victims, there are medicines that help, but no cure. *although diabetes isn't nearly on the same level as AIDS, its the same idea*

I know there's more stuff I wanted to talk about...but I can't remember what it was and I can never get to the computer when I'm thinking about it. So I guess whatever it was will have to wait....

Night everyone!!!


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Dec. 16th, 2003 05:43 am (UTC)
I'm really sorry that you are being ditched like that.

As for stick shifts, I am driving one now. It's not that bad, really. Just takes some getting used to.

Dec. 16th, 2003 12:57 pm (UTC)
HOLY COW!! You're a diabetic too? I've been diagnosed as one fer a couple years now. Kinda sux that you have to change ur diet around and we all know how addicted to sweets I am, but you get used to it. If you have any questions or concerns, I'll do my best to help ya out...if you'd like
Dec. 16th, 2003 05:24 pm (UTC)
I've been one for 12 years now...but thanks:)

I'm insulin dependant and take three to four shots a day plus test four times a day. It does take some getting used to, but after awhile it seems second nature...every now and then it gets rough though.

I just saw that comercial on TV and was like "woah, they're talking about me." It just feels weird knowing that some people see the disease we have as this life-threating thing when in my reality with the advances in technology it doesn't hardly affect my health at all other than the shots and stuff.
Dec. 17th, 2003 08:30 am (UTC)
want some flowers of hope? *waits for the water to come pouring out your nose* ;)
Dec. 17th, 2003 11:43 am (UTC)
Hehehe...thanks babe. Glad to know you still care:)
Dec. 17th, 2003 12:45 pm (UTC)
of course I do! *huggles* I hope that things are going ok for you, are you still liking your job?
Dec. 17th, 2003 01:00 pm (UTC)
Yeah, the jobs still fun for what it is. I mean it doesn't really take a brain surgeon to do it, but it's fun for the most part. It's just nice to work somewhere where I'm finally appreciated. Our Christmas party is tomorrow, that's the only thing that sucks about it. That and working New Years Eve. Oh well. You win some you lose some.
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