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I'm a bone fide whore. If anyone has a problem with this they should either take me off their friends list or take it up with me. I'm not going to apologize for it and I'm not ashamed. When you think about it it is sort of natural. I mean after are humans are only mammals, and the majority of mammals mate with someone and then don't give a rip after the "kids" grow up. Sure, this isn't incredibly scientific or anything...but some people just have issues. My issue just happens to be sex. And damnit...most guys aren't going to complain if I just want a decent screw and then forget about them. I'm sick of this whole happy dovey love crap. It's not real in my life and it never will be...so just deal. Well it was real once, but that guy's gay now so maybe you should all be happy that I'm jaded and refuse to give myself to anyone anymore. I have to admit I've come close...but the pain isn't worth it. I still get hurt because despite what people think...I can learn to care about someone, but love will just never be there. Just when I think it's close, I freak out and leave. I can't do it. I guess at least now I don't have to worry anymore, well in a way I do.

Looks like I be bringing paper to school for the LRC computers for the rest of the year....*sigh*

~Amanda

Oh yes...I went over to Mike's tonight. Played with his dwarf hamster he got yesterday. Fooled around a little but nothing to speak of. I still care about him I just know it wouldn't work. We are two totally different people. It really sucks that I attract all the co-dependant people since I hate clingyness. Oh well....just chalk it up to another one of my hellish traits.

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bleedingheart
Nov. 12th, 2002 12:14 am (UTC)
I am almost to that point as well, not really looking for a gf more like just a fuck buddy but i have a few here , but i wanna move else where

hint hint

maybe we could be buddies wink wink
shrewdwarrior
Nov. 14th, 2002 08:24 am (UTC)
I checked out your profile, sorry to hear about all the stuff you went through. Can I add you?
bleedingheart
Nov. 14th, 2002 08:26 am (UTC)
Sure
shrewdwarrior
Nov. 12th, 2002 06:15 am (UTC)
hey at least your being honest with yourself. I admit it I am a hedonist also. It is just so darn addicting.
andyanarchist
Nov. 12th, 2002 02:02 pm (UTC)
Anyways...
I'm sure this can't be a good thing... just in some way.

Or maybe I'm totally warped, but... anyways its not my problem anymore I guess, I got my stuff from your house and left you a note, its on the books left side of the desk.

-Laters
a_gothic_beauty
Nov. 12th, 2002 03:31 pm (UTC)
be careful with mike, you know how he is...

oh, and i'll be up from sunday afternoon after thanksgiving until tuesday sometime, so i'm sure we can get together :)
andyanarchist
Nov. 12th, 2002 04:13 pm (UTC)
But...
Sure you can do that, theres nothing that big abour sex, insert, thrust repeat you know its pretty simple and leads to a orgasim which is nothing but a chemical release of endorphines. It might feel good for a minute, but after that we are evolved and you need to know if you'll be any happier? Will you be happy leading this life...? I guess I don't care anymore if you are or aren't but you always had such potentional from the first time I saw you, I just don't want to see you throw it all away in depression, sex, and what-not.






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